Being Home…

“Faith is when your soul fills with courage as the storm clouds roll in.”

“We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face…we must do that which we think we cannot.”  Eleanor Roosevelt

I love being home, but man is it rough getting this body to do what I want it to.  I’ve always been the person that had to be reminded to stop and smell the roses because I am always going 24/7.  Now I sort of don’t have a choice.  I get to slow down and I’m loving it.   I don’t physically have the strength yet to do what I am use to doing, and my body doesn’t let me forget it.  It has been a humbling experience.  Now I choose one project a day to tackle and then play with my kids the rest of the day.  Our children have been so amazing through all of this.  Corbin is so patient with me and understands why I can’t pick him up.  He actually is good for me and will tell me to sit down and rest.  It’s hilarious, he takes care of me constantly.  Kayla, bless her heart, doesn’t quite get it.  She gets upset if I can’t pick her up, and although it breaks my heart when I can’t pick her up, I am grateful Nannie is close by to help and spoil her rotten.  She is the cutest little fart.  Corbin is all boy, and Kayla is equally all girl.   She runs around telling everyone about her pretty hair or her pretty dress.  I love them both more than words could ever express. 

I am so grateful for my husband.  He is so patient with me and the children.  He goes to work all day and then comes home and without saying a word just picks up and begins helping.  Even though I can do a lot by myself now… he still watches me like a hawk.   He has shown such love and dedication throughout all of this. 

Other than all of my fun follow up appointments with all the different doctors, physical therapy is probably the hardest because they have me on so much medicine that I’m doing everything like a drunken sailor.  I have my good days and bad.  But overall am trying my best to keep pressing forward and staying strong.

JP told me that this scripture brought him a lot of strength and courage during the hardest parts of my coma.  And now it brings us both strength as we go through the recovering process together.

Proverbs 3:5-6

5  Trust in the Lord with all thine heart: and lean not unto thine own understanding.

6  In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. 

Our own understanding can be so limited, that we have to be able to Trust with all of our hearts to fully see the outcome and blessings the Lord has in store for us.  Knowing that the path he takes us will help us reach our greatest potential.  

I was having sort of a rough day yesterday…  but this card I found for my mother in law really lifted my spirit.   She has recently had surgery to have cancer removed from her throat.  The surgery was very successful and our family was blessed with yet another miracle.  She is now cancer free!   I found the cutest card to send to her.  It had a little boy on the front with a rash and thermometer in his mouth.  Then a little dog was next to him having sympathy pains and a little rash on his belly.  I think since we both were in the hospital recently we sort of can have sympathy for one another.  It wasn’t until I got home later that night and went to write in the card that I realized what was written inside.  It was written in a very small font size at the bottom. 

2 Kings 20:5 “….I have heard thy prayers, I have seen thy tears, behold, I will heal thee…”  I was touched by this scripture and felt that it was speaking to Michelle and me directly.   I could feel the compassion and personal love that God has for each of us.  Again it is so humbling to think that he knows us so personally. 

I am having a follow up EEG done tomorrow morning, and therefore have to pull an all-nighter.  So I thought I would take this time in the middle of the night to share a few of my thoughts. 

Love you all!

Amber